Forsaken

alone

around the one

who claims to love me most

nothing left to give

but needed nonetheless

running on empty

noticed

I can’t provide 

what he desires

yet it is expected 

disguised as care

camouflaged as concern

feigned as love

alone

around the one 

who claims to love me most

he doesn’t

Immobile

expected to change
you’re stagnant

expected to grow
you’re still

expected to love
you’re indifferent

expected to respect
you’re coarse

expected to be honest
you lie

expected to trust
you’re deceptive 

expected to stay
i'm gone.

Restoration

Heavy heart for the sins so
Easily cast to blame on
Another.
Resistance against
Taking responsibility

Builds
Rebellion
Only the
King can
End
Nicole.

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Remembering the
Eternal cost of
Salvation
To bring me to
Ordinations,
Re-arranging my heart for the
Everlasting purpose of the one who
Died for me.

Endure

The opposite
of love,
indifference.

Stale hearts
shallow breaths,
weakness.

Malevolence sparks
the feelings,
compassion.

Rapid breathing
gasps air,
strength.

Building allegiance
through passion,
fight.

A Haiku

I want what we had
Love more passionate than flames
Healing to the soul

In My Heart

Little toes, the first I saw
before you were born
They walked into my heart
and never left

There you stand

Your crinkled nose
and rosy cheeks
Your toothy grin and sapphire eyes
look deep into my heart

Where you stand

Your temper tantrums
and silliness
your love and wet kisses
melt my heart

Here you stand
forever in my heart

Full Moon

Remember when you were strong
Unashamed of His love;
When passion ran through like fire?
Your heart sank
Into the ashes
Waves are ebbing
The moon is waning

No one loves me
Inspires me
Impresses me
They way you used to
All that is left are ashes
Waves are ebbing
The moon is waning

The lowest reached
Sand is sifting
You can be remarkable
Dig
Ashes to ashes
Let the waves crash
And the moon be full