Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Beautiful Disaster

a glimpse into my testimony...

Midnight
My world crashed down
Where they stood
Drinking away my life
This is love.

I walked into the summer's night
Sitting on the cool pavement
Eyes closed
a disaster

Three O'Clock
the pieces of my world
Are in Your hands
This is Love

I sat on my bed
wrapped in Your warmth
Eyes closed
Beautiful

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Breathless

My heart weighs
down my entire body
I suffocate

Your hand grasps
shooting pain down my spine
chaining my legs to the floor
as a river of red engulfs me

The air of you has forced itself
into my lungs
again
it surrounds me
leaving me with no other option

I breath you in

and choke
my lips gasp for breath
but no clean air exists

my eyes go black
and i give into you

falling to the ground
with the only sound
a crash of chains
and bleeding

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Seduction.

[It is the nature of desire not to be satisfied, and most humans live only for the gratification of it] Aristotle

Magical innocence of youth
slowly deteriorates with aged wisdom
Into an inevitable haunting desire
an ache for transcendence to
surpass the mundane monotony and
rise into the passion of complete unbridled freedom.

This spark of intimacy reflects
fiery embers from your eyes
Gazing towards the ominous pilgrimage
required to quench
the thirst of your parched soul.

Yet
you are seduced back
unhealed wounds from 
arrows of darkness.
Lies shoot disdain for this
quaint sentiment of a
Sacred Romance
and into the quasiredemptive busyness
called life.
You return
embracing what is your anesthetized heart

Only to find your indulgent attempts
at gratification fail.
Curiosities are never tamed
buy crystallized
Broken only by the step of faith
off the edge of the abyss

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Grace

Filth covers her face
  dirt and grime are found beneath her fingernails
Her clothes are tattered and torn
  with stains of debauchery
Pride is written in scars across her heart
  while selfishness is the fabric of her clothing

She stands in front of the crowd of demons for a price

       A High Price

Her head is lifted as if she is worth a thousand,
       or two
But the multitude below dirty and bruised,
      snatch and struggle
      seizing her for free
      tearing her garments
      and her heart
                  to pieces

She cannot fight


Racing through the muck and debauchery
      she sees Him, in white
combatting his way through the horde

        To Save Her.


Through the mud and dust he is
        unrecognizable to her

He reaches her
  and surrounds her with his Love
Pulling her from the pit

She is safe - but he is beaten, bruised,
  scarred, and stabbed
Blood streams from his face
  From his hands
  From his feet
  From his side
His white robe, now undistinguishable
  from its surroundings

But with his last breathe
She is lifted to safety, a beautiful paradise
       while he is dragged down to the valley

Shadows of death are dancing throughout the pit
       around her savior

This jubilee halts with a crack of thunder
Colors change
The valley becomes a mountain
The dead become flowers
The dirt becomes beauty
And there he stands at the peak
With his arms stretched out for her

And She Remembers

As she runs, the filth is falling
  the scars of pride are vanishing
  and herself is forgotten
Instead she wears the white gown
He purchased for her

And He stands there
  Her Husband
  Her Bridegroom

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

a memory

one of the first poems i remember hearing and memorizing is a poem my dad would read to me when i was a little girl. It is simple, straight forward, and has a real message. A message he was probably trying to teach me when i was young, but i just liked the poem- it rhymed... So, i thought i would share it with you:


A Wise Old Owl


A wise old owl lived in an oak;
The more he saw the less he spoke;
The less he spoke the more he heard:
Why can't we all be like that bird?
     [Edward Hersey Richards]

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Crossing

I.
Two wanderers travel parallel paths
their journeys' cross.
Two years they walk in the same direction
together.
The same bright star
guiding the way.
Two hearts led by one Truth - steady,
Unchanging.

II.
Changing
steadily, the direction of their paths diverge.
One steps away from the starlight.
A traveler, lost in the dark.

Father into the thicket she wanders
blinded by weeds, dust, and dirt.
Surrounded in darkness
she stumbles and grasps for the light.
She falls.

Hearing
the remaining traveler attempts to help the fallen.
Straining
Into the darkness without loosing sight of the light herself
Failing in her attempts
to save
she continues in the light
Hoping

III.
I am watching, searching, and waiting
for her return
from the dark thicket
Praying
for a break in the brush to allow the light
to guide her
Home.


Monday, February 15, 2010

Divine Reflection

[in honor of valentines day [a day late] i wrote this poem for joey before we got married]

Restlessly Falling
I see myself floating
Lost in transition
To you

Rapidly Breathing
I feel my heart beating
Glimpses of me
In you

Slowly Sighing
I lose myself dreaming
Created and molded
For you

Carefully Waiting
I catch myself leaping
Forward by faith
To you

Thankfully Praising
I see what's captivating 
Reflections of Christ
In you

Altruistically Yearning
I try perfecting
Patience and kindness
For you

Intimately Desiring
I recognize  I'm falling
Further in love
With you