Shower of shooting stars
this love,
pieces of beauty and light
amidst darkness.
Wishes and prayers
with the isolation of the fall.
Breaking down and coming undone
in the rush.
In the heat there is passion
colors;
The fuel of the fire.
Intensity that takes
breath away.
In the rhythm of our heartbeats,
here and gone.
Beating pain in my chest,
needed to live.
Never knew I could feel this much;
this love, a
Shower of shooting stars
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Unconditional Love
"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten son, that whosoever believes in Him, shall not perish but have eternal life"
John 3:16
"I have come that they may have Life, and have it to the full"
John 10:10b
I.
Immeasurable and undeserving
Experience never ending joy
Through knowing God personally
For this is His purpose for us
II.
Sinful, missing the mark
Undeserving and unable
To achieve this purpose
Alone.
The wages of this imperfection?
Death
Eternal, spiritual
Separation.
Though we attempt, we fail
For a gap exists
Between God's holiness
And our singleness
Unbridgeable
III.
EXCEPT
Through Jesus
The Way
The Truth
The Life
God's Son
Gives as our
Sacrifice
While we were still sinners
Crucified
The unbridgeable gap?
Bridged
There lies the corss-
Providing the way.
Christ paid the wages
Eternal death
Becomes
Eternal life.
IV.
Only by receiving
Accepting
Christ
Can we-
Eternally separated
Be forever reunited
Cleaned and Holy
By the Grace
Of our God.
V.
There He stands
At the door of your heart
Knocking
Opening the door
Life Changing
Eternally.
John 3:16
"I have come that they may have Life, and have it to the full"
John 10:10b
I.
Immeasurable and undeserving
Experience never ending joy
Through knowing God personally
For this is His purpose for us
II.
Sinful, missing the mark
Undeserving and unable
To achieve this purpose
Alone.
The wages of this imperfection?
Death
Eternal, spiritual
Separation.
Though we attempt, we fail
For a gap exists
Between God's holiness
And our singleness
Unbridgeable
III.
EXCEPT
Through Jesus
The Way
The Truth
The Life
God's Son
Gives as our
Sacrifice
While we were still sinners
Crucified
The unbridgeable gap?
Bridged
There lies the corss-
Providing the way.
Christ paid the wages
Eternal death
Becomes
Eternal life.
IV.
Only by receiving
Accepting
Christ
Can we-
Eternally separated
Be forever reunited
Cleaned and Holy
By the Grace
Of our God.
V.
There He stands
At the door of your heart
Knocking
Opening the door
Life Changing
Eternally.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Happy Birthday
my wonderful fellow Africa Family Coordinators from work wrote me this great, hilarious poem for my birthday. they know me so well...
You are wise beyond your years
Being with you relives all our fears.
You like things neat - you are no hoarder
Without you, our G: drive would have absolutely no order.
Thank you for answering all our questions
And for the abundancy of your Africa information.
You fill us with wisdom about being a wife
You wear precious clothes and remove all our strife.
You are the senior of coordination
But still humble enough to give us so much supportive affirmation.
You are calm beyond words and love funny jokes
On the Run loves you because you drink all of their cokes.
Because of you
we know the beauty of clip art
Remember you are loved here
and are the beat of our heart
[Caitlin Edwards & Emily Lineberger]
You are wise beyond your years
Being with you relives all our fears.
You like things neat - you are no hoarder
Without you, our G: drive would have absolutely no order.
Thank you for answering all our questions
And for the abundancy of your Africa information.
You fill us with wisdom about being a wife
You wear precious clothes and remove all our strife.
You are the senior of coordination
But still humble enough to give us so much supportive affirmation.
You are calm beyond words and love funny jokes
On the Run loves you because you drink all of their cokes.
Because of you
we know the beauty of clip art
Remember you are loved here
and are the beat of our heart
[Caitlin Edwards & Emily Lineberger]
Thursday, July 8, 2010
His Walk
written for a highschool friend who lost his life fighting in Iraq
Young, he walked the line to Pomp and Circumstance
into the smokey future.
Opportunity knocked at his door, the wood cracked
Georgia called him south, the peach bruised
But his heart led him elsewhere
Into a land raped by war, torn by anger and hate
Innocence, his eyes saw only twenty years
of love, of hope, of family, of friends, of God.
I called him into a life of loneliness, of emptiness
Aged, he walked the front line with
the few, the proud
for me.
Vitality, his strength began mightily
but the smoke weakened his hold.
He wanted to go home. His legs couldn't move.
My life, my future, my freedom
formed chains around his ankles
Three days.
He is home, he walks the silver-lined skies
Back into the love, the hope, the family, the friends, God.
My chains fall from his ankles, he's free.
Young, he walked the line to Pomp and Circumstance
into the smokey future.
Opportunity knocked at his door, the wood cracked
Georgia called him south, the peach bruised
But his heart led him elsewhere
Into a land raped by war, torn by anger and hate
Innocence, his eyes saw only twenty years
of love, of hope, of family, of friends, of God.
I called him into a life of loneliness, of emptiness
Aged, he walked the front line with
the few, the proud
for me.
Vitality, his strength began mightily
but the smoke weakened his hold.
He wanted to go home. His legs couldn't move.
My life, my future, my freedom
formed chains around his ankles
Three days.
He is home, he walks the silver-lined skies
Back into the love, the hope, the family, the friends, God.
My chains fall from his ankles, he's free.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Nineteen
That springtime in Virginia, everything
was new and fresh,
the flowers, the trees, the people
I met a boy who told me what I wanted to hear.
I was naive,
feeding off what was given to me.
I questioned the intentions fleetingly, older and
used, carrying the burden of the truth in
the back of my mind.
At nineteen, away from home, I wanted
to seize the opportunity.
His eyes were gray casting shadows on his
empty claims, and like a fool I'd smile
He knew what to do what to say, how to
appease me and how to keep hidden.
We went to a crystal city and the walls fell
down that night.
I asked and asked myself how each scar felt.
How I let it come to this point.
As the lies came to light and the facade began
to crumble, "He didn't understand" was all he said.
A sudden storm came that night and the
flash from the lightning illuminated the truth
He uttered yet, another false promise,
and I left.
was new and fresh,
the flowers, the trees, the people
I met a boy who told me what I wanted to hear.
I was naive,
feeding off what was given to me.
I questioned the intentions fleetingly, older and
used, carrying the burden of the truth in
the back of my mind.
At nineteen, away from home, I wanted
to seize the opportunity.
His eyes were gray casting shadows on his
empty claims, and like a fool I'd smile
He knew what to do what to say, how to
appease me and how to keep hidden.
We went to a crystal city and the walls fell
down that night.
I asked and asked myself how each scar felt.
How I let it come to this point.
As the lies came to light and the facade began
to crumble, "He didn't understand" was all he said.
A sudden storm came that night and the
flash from the lightning illuminated the truth
He uttered yet, another false promise,
and I left.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Beautiful Disaster
a glimpse into my testimony...
Midnight
My world crashed down
Where they stood
Drinking away my life
This is love.
I walked into the summer's night
Sitting on the cool pavement
Eyes closed
a disaster
Three O'Clock
the pieces of my world
Are in Your hands
This is Love
I sat on my bed
wrapped in Your warmth
Eyes closed
Beautiful
Midnight
My world crashed down
Where they stood
Drinking away my life
This is love.
I walked into the summer's night
Sitting on the cool pavement
Eyes closed
a disaster
Three O'Clock
the pieces of my world
Are in Your hands
This is Love
I sat on my bed
wrapped in Your warmth
Eyes closed
Beautiful
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Breathless
My heart weighs
down my entire body
I suffocate
Your hand grasps
shooting pain down my spine
chaining my legs to the floor
as a river of red engulfs me
The air of you has forced itself
into my lungs
again
it surrounds me
leaving me with no other option
I breath you in
and choke
my lips gasp for breath
but no clean air exists
my eyes go black
and i give into you
falling to the ground
with the only sound
a crash of chains
and bleeding
down my entire body
I suffocate
Your hand grasps
shooting pain down my spine
chaining my legs to the floor
as a river of red engulfs me
The air of you has forced itself
into my lungs
again
it surrounds me
leaving me with no other option
I breath you in
and choke
my lips gasp for breath
but no clean air exists
my eyes go black
and i give into you
falling to the ground
with the only sound
a crash of chains
and bleeding
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Seduction.
[It is the nature of desire not to be satisfied, and most humans live only for the gratification of it] Aristotle
Magical innocence of youth
slowly deteriorates with aged wisdom
Into an inevitable haunting desire
an ache for transcendence to
surpass the mundane monotony and
rise into the passion of complete unbridled freedom.
This spark of intimacy reflects
fiery embers from your eyes
Gazing towards the ominous pilgrimage
required to quench
the thirst of your parched soul.
Yet
you are seduced back
unhealed wounds from
arrows of darkness.
Lies shoot disdain for this
quaint sentiment of a
Sacred Romance
and into the quasiredemptive busyness
called life.
You return
embracing what is your anesthetized heart
Only to find your indulgent attempts
at gratification fail.
Curiosities are never tamed
buy crystallized
Broken only by the step of faith
off the edge of the abyss
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Grace
Filth covers her face
dirt and grime are found beneath her fingernails
Her clothes are tattered and torn
with stains of debauchery
Pride is written in scars across her heart
while selfishness is the fabric of her clothing
She stands in front of the crowd of demons for a price
A High Price
Her head is lifted as if she is worth a thousand,
or two
But the multitude below dirty and bruised,
snatch and struggle
seizing her for free
tearing her garments
and her heart
to pieces
She cannot fight
Racing through the muck and debauchery
she sees Him, in white
combatting his way through the horde
To Save Her.
Through the mud and dust he is
unrecognizable to her
He reaches her
and surrounds her with his Love
Pulling her from the pit
She is safe - but he is beaten, bruised,
scarred, and stabbed
Blood streams from his face
From his hands
From his feet
From his side
His white robe, now undistinguishable
from its surroundings
But with his last breathe
She is lifted to safety, a beautiful paradise
while he is dragged down to the valley
Shadows of death are dancing throughout the pit
around her savior
This jubilee halts with a crack of thunder
Colors change
The valley becomes a mountain
The dead become flowers
The dirt becomes beauty
And there he stands at the peak
With his arms stretched out for her
And She Remembers
As she runs, the filth is falling
the scars of pride are vanishing
and herself is forgotten
Instead she wears the white gown
He purchased for her
And He stands there
Her Husband
Her Bridegroom
dirt and grime are found beneath her fingernails
Her clothes are tattered and torn
with stains of debauchery
Pride is written in scars across her heart
while selfishness is the fabric of her clothing
She stands in front of the crowd of demons for a price
A High Price
Her head is lifted as if she is worth a thousand,
or two
But the multitude below dirty and bruised,
snatch and struggle
seizing her for free
tearing her garments
and her heart
to pieces
She cannot fight
Racing through the muck and debauchery
she sees Him, in white
combatting his way through the horde
To Save Her.
Through the mud and dust he is
unrecognizable to her
He reaches her
and surrounds her with his Love
Pulling her from the pit
She is safe - but he is beaten, bruised,
scarred, and stabbed
Blood streams from his face
From his hands
From his feet
From his side
His white robe, now undistinguishable
from its surroundings
But with his last breathe
She is lifted to safety, a beautiful paradise
while he is dragged down to the valley
Shadows of death are dancing throughout the pit
around her savior
This jubilee halts with a crack of thunder
Colors change
The valley becomes a mountain
The dead become flowers
The dirt becomes beauty
And there he stands at the peak
With his arms stretched out for her
And She Remembers
As she runs, the filth is falling
the scars of pride are vanishing
and herself is forgotten
Instead she wears the white gown
He purchased for her
And He stands there
Her Husband
Her Bridegroom
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
a memory
one of the first poems i remember hearing and memorizing is a poem my dad would read to me when i was a little girl. It is simple, straight forward, and has a real message. A message he was probably trying to teach me when i was young, but i just liked the poem- it rhymed... So, i thought i would share it with you:
A Wise Old Owl
A wise old owl lived in an oak;
The more he saw the less he spoke;
The less he spoke the more he heard:
Why can't we all be like that bird?
[Edward Hersey Richards]
A Wise Old Owl
A wise old owl lived in an oak;
The more he saw the less he spoke;
The less he spoke the more he heard:
Why can't we all be like that bird?
[Edward Hersey Richards]
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Crossing
I.
Two wanderers travel parallel paths
their journeys' cross.
Two years they walk in the same direction
together.
The same bright star
guiding the way.
Two hearts led by one Truth - steady,
Unchanging.
II.
Changing
steadily, the direction of their paths diverge.
One steps away from the starlight.
A traveler, lost in the dark.
Father into the thicket she wanders
blinded by weeds, dust, and dirt.
Surrounded in darkness
she stumbles and grasps for the light.
She falls.
Hearing
the remaining traveler attempts to help the fallen.
Straining
Into the darkness without loosing sight of the light herself
Failing in her attempts
to save
she continues in the light
Hoping
III.
I am watching, searching, and waiting
for her return
from the dark thicket
Praying
for a break in the brush to allow the light
to guide her
Home.
Two wanderers travel parallel paths
their journeys' cross.
Two years they walk in the same direction
together.
The same bright star
guiding the way.
Two hearts led by one Truth - steady,
Unchanging.
II.
Changing
steadily, the direction of their paths diverge.
One steps away from the starlight.
A traveler, lost in the dark.
Father into the thicket she wanders
blinded by weeds, dust, and dirt.
Surrounded in darkness
she stumbles and grasps for the light.
She falls.
Hearing
the remaining traveler attempts to help the fallen.
Straining
Into the darkness without loosing sight of the light herself
Failing in her attempts
to save
she continues in the light
Hoping
III.
I am watching, searching, and waiting
for her return
from the dark thicket
Praying
for a break in the brush to allow the light
to guide her
Home.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Divine Reflection
[in honor of valentines day [a day late] i wrote this poem for joey before we got married]
Restlessly Falling
I see myself floating
Lost in transition
To you
Rapidly Breathing
I feel my heart beating
Glimpses of me
In you
Slowly Sighing
I lose myself dreaming
Created and molded
For you
Carefully Waiting
I catch myself leaping
Forward by faith
To you
Thankfully Praising
I see what's captivating
Reflections of Christ
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Canvas
a passion for poetry
ever since 9th grade when i had to write a poem for English class, i've loved writing poetry. i hated english class.... but writing poetry stuck with me. i like words. so in college i took a creative writing: poetry class as an elective for my writing and rhetoric major. It was by far one of my favorite classes at JMU b/c all we did is write poetry. i love writing it, but it takes time, and this gave me a reason. we had to read it in front of the class and have it orally edited ... but i didn't mind, normally i would despise this, but i loved writing and making it better. So, as a final project we had to have a compilation of poetry... name it, have an abstract, etc. so i thought i'd share it as a part of this blog. maybe it'll motivate me to make time to write more... these aren't perfect, and they're no shakespeare, but i think they're relatable. and that's my goal.. i'll be posting sporadically.... I will also be posting poems that have special meaning to me or ones that i simply like... enjoy.
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My collection of poetry is connected through the underlying theme of relationships, whether a friendship, a relationship with a boyfriend or significant other, or a relationship with a higher power (God). This underlying intimacy is threaded throughout each poem. The poems' subject matters range from general experiences such as death, to love, to loss, and to intimacy. However, within each of these subject matters there is a larger story, a greater Romance that we are all a part of. Hopefully, this collection of poems gives insight into the greater story... the Romance that is Life.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
journey from process to product
When examining the process of creative writing, especially among poets, it is a very individual, intimate journey into their soul. They themselves are sorting through the emotional baggage of life and picking through the cobwebs in the back of their mind to bring into the light, that which is a part of them. The product of this journey is the poem, while the process is the journey itself. It all begins with a triggering event, or emotional. My journey begins with that event that triggers the chaos running amuck in the mind and ends when I am able to fist this chaos and translate it into language. This does not necessarily finish the journey, but the product of the poem can bring closure. With that said, my writing process? Come with me on this journey...
My journey begins with that event, emotion, feeling, sentiment, or passion that triggers in me the need for release. Its release into the unknown to be controlled, tamed, and hopefully understood. Consequently, there is a time period in which I can grasp this uncontrolled, chaotic disarray of energy in order to translate it into something understandable. If I attempt this feat too quickly after the trigger my ability to seize and organize is severely inhibited by the extreme chaos of emotions. Therefore, when I am attempting to write I must allow my thoughts to settle and calm to a point where I can then begin to try this control and release. This time period can be anything from a couple hours to a couple months, thus so far has been the case.
When I do begin this process of putting my thoughts on paper, I am usually alone, in my mind at least. People can surround me, but as long as I am able to be in solitude with myself and not distracted by my environment I can write. I almost prefer writing with people around rather that isolating myself alone in my room. This also serves as inspiration at times. I can be completely isolated in my thoughts and experiencing my solitude when surrounded and people watching. Others, even strangers, give large amounts of inspiration when you watch them. From watching interactions between friends or couples, to someone alone and their actions or seeming emotions, these observations become poetry. Not only being inspiring in themselves, these observations can arouse the long settled chaos in the back of my mind. These observations serve as a broom stirring up dust in the corner allowing me to reach for, again or possible the first time, a similar even in my own life.
Following along with my environment, I favor being outside when writing poetry. Whether warm or cool, the touching, tasting, smelling, seeing, and hearing of nature and what is life inspires my words. It also inspires my thoughts and emotions. Although I may not write about the grass or sky every time I write outside, the beauty of creation inspires other, deeper intimacies in life, more specifically, God. I am able to see God in the natural world and experience Him, in ways, including being outside, in His creation. The complex subject matter that is God, faith, and romance, inspires an uncountable number of sense and emotions to grasp with the language of poetry.
A final aspect, of the environment of my journey includes a pen or pencil and paper. I cannot, even dream, of initially writing a poem on a computer, typewriter, or any type of technology. What is most natural and real flows most directly and uninhibited onto paper with a pen or pencil. With a computer, the process of writing becomes processed and unnatural going through various steps to become a product. When I am writing straight onto paper I am able to put everything I am thinking down immediately, and then go back and correct. This makes for a more authentic, personal product, rather than something influence, edited, and auto-formatted. My opinion concerning the use of a pencil or pen for the initial creation of a piece of any creative writing holds strong. It is a better product in the end.
Completing the aspect of the journey concerning where my poems are born, lets continue to the centrality that is poetry writing, the inspiration. Many different things inspire my writing, some topics and subject matters more than others; however I feel my poetry covers a wide range. Among many forms of inspiration are relationships. Any sort of relationship can cause feelings of pain, loss, and struggle, beauty, love, joy which are some of the emotions I express when I do write about relationships with friends, significant others, and God. It is very cathartic to write poetry.
The tail end of the journey is revision. The chaos I am attempting to express usually initially comes out on paper as just that, chaos. It takes a varying number of revisions from poem to poem to arrive at a completed product. However, I simply go through it draft after draft changing words and arrangement to best express my intentions for the poem. Revision is an art in itself. usually when I revise, my audience is myself. I have never attempted to publish any works and therefore am unconcerned with what others think of it. However, it is a possible goal of mine to publish some poetry and when i complete final revisions I take others into consideration, but keeping my thoughts on where the poem is going and how it should read first. Poetry is a journey into the soul of another, therefore, it is most important that what you see is a pure reflection of that person's soul. I believe a poets most important audience, should be themselves.
My journey begins with that event, emotion, feeling, sentiment, or passion that triggers in me the need for release. Its release into the unknown to be controlled, tamed, and hopefully understood. Consequently, there is a time period in which I can grasp this uncontrolled, chaotic disarray of energy in order to translate it into something understandable. If I attempt this feat too quickly after the trigger my ability to seize and organize is severely inhibited by the extreme chaos of emotions. Therefore, when I am attempting to write I must allow my thoughts to settle and calm to a point where I can then begin to try this control and release. This time period can be anything from a couple hours to a couple months, thus so far has been the case.
When I do begin this process of putting my thoughts on paper, I am usually alone, in my mind at least. People can surround me, but as long as I am able to be in solitude with myself and not distracted by my environment I can write. I almost prefer writing with people around rather that isolating myself alone in my room. This also serves as inspiration at times. I can be completely isolated in my thoughts and experiencing my solitude when surrounded and people watching. Others, even strangers, give large amounts of inspiration when you watch them. From watching interactions between friends or couples, to someone alone and their actions or seeming emotions, these observations become poetry. Not only being inspiring in themselves, these observations can arouse the long settled chaos in the back of my mind. These observations serve as a broom stirring up dust in the corner allowing me to reach for, again or possible the first time, a similar even in my own life.
Following along with my environment, I favor being outside when writing poetry. Whether warm or cool, the touching, tasting, smelling, seeing, and hearing of nature and what is life inspires my words. It also inspires my thoughts and emotions. Although I may not write about the grass or sky every time I write outside, the beauty of creation inspires other, deeper intimacies in life, more specifically, God. I am able to see God in the natural world and experience Him, in ways, including being outside, in His creation. The complex subject matter that is God, faith, and romance, inspires an uncountable number of sense and emotions to grasp with the language of poetry.
A final aspect, of the environment of my journey includes a pen or pencil and paper. I cannot, even dream, of initially writing a poem on a computer, typewriter, or any type of technology. What is most natural and real flows most directly and uninhibited onto paper with a pen or pencil. With a computer, the process of writing becomes processed and unnatural going through various steps to become a product. When I am writing straight onto paper I am able to put everything I am thinking down immediately, and then go back and correct. This makes for a more authentic, personal product, rather than something influence, edited, and auto-formatted. My opinion concerning the use of a pencil or pen for the initial creation of a piece of any creative writing holds strong. It is a better product in the end.
Completing the aspect of the journey concerning where my poems are born, lets continue to the centrality that is poetry writing, the inspiration. Many different things inspire my writing, some topics and subject matters more than others; however I feel my poetry covers a wide range. Among many forms of inspiration are relationships. Any sort of relationship can cause feelings of pain, loss, and struggle, beauty, love, joy which are some of the emotions I express when I do write about relationships with friends, significant others, and God. It is very cathartic to write poetry.
The tail end of the journey is revision. The chaos I am attempting to express usually initially comes out on paper as just that, chaos. It takes a varying number of revisions from poem to poem to arrive at a completed product. However, I simply go through it draft after draft changing words and arrangement to best express my intentions for the poem. Revision is an art in itself. usually when I revise, my audience is myself. I have never attempted to publish any works and therefore am unconcerned with what others think of it. However, it is a possible goal of mine to publish some poetry and when i complete final revisions I take others into consideration, but keeping my thoughts on where the poem is going and how it should read first. Poetry is a journey into the soul of another, therefore, it is most important that what you see is a pure reflection of that person's soul. I believe a poets most important audience, should be themselves.
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